ELLEHCIM

2009-12-22T21:49:00.002+08:00

wont that fella pls just return earlier?! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
it sure aint a good feeling waiting. no wonder waiting is the most painful thing on earth.
white cars.amk hub.latio.teachers.school.nie.all bring back memories. urghhhhhhhhhh

at least christmas is coming soon

2009-12-10T00:01:00.002+08:00

this blog is so dead but im wide awake at this hour cause im so troubled and i need to rant.
i dont know what to do. will someone ANYONE tell me what to do.
i hate this feeling of being hung up in the air.
i wish i was the one overseas, having something to do to keep my mind off things! rather than being the one that is left stranded in singapore with all the thoughts in my head cause im too free.
seriously. stupid.
all the happy faces around me. sometimes i wish i could be like them. happy.
but right now, im far from happy. im perplexed, troubled, frustrated.
i wish God will just drop a big sign from heaven with big fat neon lights to tell me what to do and not leave me guessing what im suppose to be doing.
i know i should pray. seriously. who doesnt?! but how to pray when there are thousand and one thoughts floating in my head.
is it or is it not? should i or should i not? am i going to bang my head again or is this the right path? TELL ME! i dont wanna fall into it even deeper then realise im heading towards a road block and have to go through the painful process of having to get back on track again. been through once, im not going to go through it again. please god. NO.
im worried. i cant sleep. i need a sign. im wide awake. wondering.

2009-04-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

HELLO ALL!
first and foremost, i would like to clarify the fact that i am NOT emo:)
hahah!
and i did not get my heartbroken recently by any man
just in case some of you were wondering what happened to me after reading my previous post
hahah!

im trying to rush my marketing report out by this week cause its due next monday!
I REALLY NEEED TO HURRY!
im gg to do my stats hw after this
OH AND GREAT NEWS PEOPLE!
i actually pass my stats test! hahah! i got 8/10! not bad!
considering the fact that i got 2/14 the first time round! hahah!:) YEAH!

2009-03-31T12:01:00.001+08:00

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky
I was believing in you
Am I mistaken do you say,
Do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever
But Id rather you be mean than love and lie
Id rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
Id rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby dont you break my heart slow
I like the way youd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way youd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping
I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever
Well Id rather you be mean than love and lie
Id rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
Id rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby dont you break my heart slow
Youe would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home thinking that were together
I wanted our love to last forever
Well Id rather you be mean than love and lie
Id rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
Id rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby dont you break my heart slow

2009-03-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

hello!!!! its been a crazy week!
well firstly, im glad to be home!!!!:)
i had a good dinner with my family on my first day home after 3 long weeks!
then after awhile i realised i was really angry with my parents.
i realised i was really bitter about everything that happened during those 3 weeks.
i tried really hard to contain that anger and be nice
but i couldnt
until last night, i spoke to my dad and apologised
and just now i spoke to my mum and apologised.
now im not angry anymore with them.
crazy week.

im trying to practice having my boundary over my emotions
its not as easy as it sounds man!!!
trying to tell myself that another man's anger has nothing got to do with me...
nothing at all mich...
nothing at all....

im really into warwick avenue!!!:) MUAHAHA!

im looking forward to my miracles in april!!! its coming! im so excited!

"HELLO! its really nice of you to bother reading this entire sentence:)"
that was my note on facebook! haha! im ready to piss people off with that message and be really entertained by their reactions!

2009-03-09T22:00:00.000+08:00

2009-03-05T21:22:00.002+08:00

"
peiyong says:
michelle!!!
peiyong says:
can u be my plant tmr
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ says:
YES
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ says:
HUH?!
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ says:
what plant?
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ says:
hahhaahahahahhaah!
peiyong says:
hahaha
peiyong says:
no lahhh
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ says:
u scare me ah!
peiyong says:
help me for my grp presentation
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ says:
okay
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ says:
how to be plant?
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ says:
stand there and look green only right?
peiyong says:
haha no lahhh
peiyong says:
we wanna "plant " audience"

another funny conversation

went to meet my dear dear sister for dinner today:)
had thai food again! YUMMY! i had phat thai with sweet potato leaves with chicken wing with tom yum seafood soup!:) then to top it all off!! i had the YUMMY 'Tom's palette' ice cream again!!!! this time i chose banana choc flavour with salted caramel cheesecake:) YUMMY!!!!!!
the next time, im going to try the chilli choc flavour! apparently it tastes better than it sounds!:)

my blocked nose feels better now:) thank GOD!

2009-03-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

sleepy!!!! and im sniffing.....
my nose is blocked
its the return of the mysterious case of the blocked nose!
i hate it when this happens!
docs wont work!
its usually cause im so angry or bitter with stuff then i'll end up getting this!
and if i still refuse to deal with it, it'll get really painful.
oh god!
im feeling especially sleepy during this period cause i think like not enough oxygen is getting into my brains!

got proj meeting tmr!
then got to do my tutorials and study so that i can just focus at church stuff on weekends!!!
then meet my dear sister for dinner:)

had my presentation today!
i felt really powerful in my three piece pants suit!
MUAHAHAHAHA!
i wanna get more shirts and pants! MUAHAHAHA!:)

2009-03-02T21:29:00.002+08:00

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/412478/1/.html

happening first day of sch!
prof got stabbed by a student, who then jumped after slitting his wrist!
the WHOLE sch was talking bout this!
i only heard bout this after i finish doing my test then someone shouted and BOOM!
the whole class knew about it and started talking bout it!
NTU became famous overnight! we are like the singapore version of Virginia Tech now! hahahah!

im going to sleep sooN! really tired!
oh i wanna say THANK U JUSTIN for doing my tagboard for me!:)

2009-03-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

heloo helllo!!!!!!im being told by this particular lady killer to update my blog

and so i will! cause i've been killed! hahah!

i just bought my stunning looking blazar today!!!

heh:) actually it aint stunning its just a normal looking blazar

but see its my first blazar! so IM REALLY EXCITED BOUT WEARING IT ON WED

and feeling all powerful! im a step closer to being my powerful business woman!

i was arguing with my friend bout our professions.

" ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ incomparable unchangeable says:
just got my blazar today! my three piece suit is OFFICIALLY FORMED!
dan-marcel; is the world bold, this love old. says:
aiyahh. so troublesome. next time u see me in just one white coat or a stethoscope around my neck or blue surgical apparels.
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ incomparable unchangeable says:
im going to be that powerful strong independent woman walking along shenton way with my document bag. u will be hidden in some clinic or hosp
dan-marcel; is the world bold, this love old. says:
what hiddden. please ahh. then i'll be rushing against time. because unlike people who ahem you, who equates time = money, im equating to time = life.
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ incomparable unchangeable says:
hahahaahaahha! say whatever! as long as it makes u happY!
dan-marcel; is the world bold, this love old. says:
wah. tsk evil. life is so precious nd vulnerable. its my duty to save em
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ incomparable unchangeable says:
haahaha! yes yes! then if like im dying or something u can SAVE ME FOR FREE!!!!
dan-marcel; is the world bold, this love old. says:
no way. u're a businesswoman, i'll charge by the seconds
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ incomparable unchangeable says:
what happened to time=life and life is precious and vulnerable?????? if so, u cant talk money cause saving a life is not bout money. RIGHT????
dan-marcel; is the world bold, this love old. says:
only for you.
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ incomparable unchangeable says:
oh evil
dan-marcel; is the world bold, this love old. says:
i gotta rip the successful businesswoman off her money to make her realise money cant pay for life.
ellehcim ๑۩۞۩๑ incomparable unchangeable says:
oh excuses
dan-marcel; is the world bold, this love old. says:
remembering that on 1st march 2009 she said ahhh whatever to my time=life."

funny conversation.

im going to sleep soon. im really tired and im having a sore throat. i cant fall sick i cant fall sick i cant fall sick! i've got an impt presentation on wednesday and i need my dear dear voice!:)

2009-02-28T23:15:00.002+08:00

i love today! hahah!
the whole week i was just feeling so burdened by many things
but im so glad im feeling so much lighter now!
God will look after my school work
God will look after my family
and God will look after the other things in my life!
I will let go of the past and focus on the rainbow and not the storm!
it will all be worth it at the end of the day! i just know it!
my God loves me and because of that i have MANY reasons to smile:)

short term pain but long term joy!
WHY NOT MAN!?

wanted to go down to get my blazar today but didnt manage to in the end! so i'll just go down tmr to get it!!!:) cant wait for my presentation on wednesday! i know it's just going to be SO SO SO good! cause if God is for me, WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME!? MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

oh how arrogant can i get!? i love myself!

2009-02-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

momentary pleasure or long term pain?
which would u choose? i wish i knew which one i would choose!

just got back not long ago from proj discussion
havent had my dinner. only had an apple. think i'm going to skip dinner today
its alr half past 10.

another proj meeting tmr early in the morning.
oh man oh man oh man!
life! where art thou?! where art thou?!

its really scary coming back to boon lay at night
the other day i was so worried someone might touch me on the bus
then today there was a mad man on the bus, i was so worried he'll do something to me
it doesnt just stop there! no it doesnt! i have to walk by the covered walkway with all the foreign workers getting drunk by the side.
cant wait to get home and feel safe again!

2009-02-25T11:16:00.002+08:00

Give me more lovin' than I've ever had
Make it all better when I'm feelin' sad
Tell me that I'm special even when I know I'm not
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin' mad, I'm so glad I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
Give me more lovin' from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends
Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I've had, I'm so glad that I found you
I love bein' around you
You make it easy, it's as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you
You make it easy, it's easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4
There's only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There's only one way to say
Those three words and that's what I'll do, I love you
I love you1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you
_________________________________________
im so happy i managed to catch boonie on facebook today!!!:)
i can so sense its going to be a great day!!!!!heeeeeeee:)

im going to do proj soooooon
then i need to get back and prepare for tmr's anoter proj discussion
and i need to study for my statistics test
WOOOOOHOOOOOO~!
i can do this!!!!
there can be miracles cause i believe!!!!!

im getting used to not staying home
im getting lovin' it! haha! im happy so very happy!
i never thought this day would come!

2009-02-16T22:06:00.003+08:00

hello hello again peeps:)
im not exactly feeling my best now
i've felt better than this
but i know i will survive this storm
i just know i will

im back at boon lay after a few weeks of staying home
i miss home
i miss my spongebob soft toy on my bed
i miss the smell of home
i miss my family.
how i wish i everything is over and i can be home again

oh well. but then again im quite glad that im in boon lay
cause when im in boon lay,
theres basically nothing much to do except studying!
and maybe watch that one hr of tv
and maybe do some hsework.
i dont have much opportunity to waste time!

now i look forward to school
cause i can bury myself in books and ignore all other things
like for that few hours in sch with my classmates, i can just forget everything
but then again i kinda dread studying cause im so not in the mood
i will rise above this storm

2009-01-20T11:27:00.001+08:00

love this.:)butterfly by jason mraz

2009-01-09T14:28:00.002+08:00

You walked with me

Footprints in the sand

You helped me understand

Where I'm going You walked with me

When I was all alone

With so much unknown

Along the way

Than I heard you say

I promise you

I'm always there

When your heart is filled with sorrow and despair

I'll carry you

When you need a friend

You'll find my footprints in the sand

I see my life

Flash across the sky

So many times have I

Been so afraid

And just when I

I thought I'd lost my way

You gave me strength to carry on

Thats when I heard you say

When Im weary I know you'll be there

And I can feel you

When you say

first week of school is officially over

the honeymoon period has come and gone

im glad i survived one week without coming home

its been one tough week

emotional roller coaster

i went up and then down then up then down again

but thankfully i have my family around me to pick me up and help me to move on

today i learnt bout the 7deadly pitfalls in life:

school days: boy girl relationship problems
busy uni life
boy girl relationship problems when in uni
career
marriage
children
ministry

these pitfalls get u distracted from the real meaning of life, God.

im kinda like in a danger zone. when school term starts to get busy, i get distracted real easily. and my heart would no longer be at church. gotta be careful!:)

2009-01-01T11:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
its been one hellofa exciting year!

saw the fireworks display last night
it was spectacular spectacular!
the colours were so beautiful and the highs and lows in the fireworks were PERFECTLY matched!
so i believe this yr will be BETTER than the previous yr!
THIS YR WILL BE A BETTER YR THAN THE PREVIOUS YR!

i stayed over at high street centre after the celebrations

we walked along the singapore river at about 2 then got back by about 3 and watched 'never been kissed'. as the show went on, people started drifting away to neverland. i was so bored from like 5 till 6plus. so i decided to leave at 7 cause i was sleepy too. so i came home to sleep.

I JUST WOKE UP:) i slept from 8 to 11 and now i cant sleep anymore.

i took the photo up there at about 6. i was sitting by the window at the 3oth floor looking at clubbers trying to get home. then i got too bored and decided to take a photo.

i know this yr will be better than the previous year!
THREE YEARS is enough.

Called you for the first time yesterday

Finally found the missing part of me

Felt so close but you were far away

Left me without anything to say

Now I'm speechless

Over the edge I'm just breathless

I never thought that I'd catch this

Lovebug again

Hopeless Head over heels in the moment

I never thought that I'd get hit

By this lovebug again

I can't get your smile out of my mind

(I can't get you out of my mind)

I think about your eyes all the time

You're beautiful but you don't even try

(You don't even, don't even try)

Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I'm speechless

Over the edge I'm just breathless

I never thought that I'd catch this

Lovebug again

Hopeless Head over heels in the moment

I never thought that I'd get hit

By this lovebug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday

Everything I wished that it would be

Suddenly I forgot how to speak

Hopeless, breathless, baby, can't you see

Now I'mâ€¦ Yeah!

Now I'm speechless Over the edge I'm just breathless

I never thought that I'd catch this

Lovebug again

Now I'm hopeless

Head over heels in the moment

I never thought that I'd get hit

By this lovebug again

Ohh... lovebug again

2008-12-30T17:41:00.002+08:00

HELLO
im not dead
no im not:)

what will not kill me will only make me stronger
when the going gets tough the tough will get going
i will survive! i always will!!!!

had lunch with the logistics team at black angus all thanks to desmond:)
i had such a good lunch!
yum yum
had a steak which tasted like PARADISE!
then went to buy some presents then came home:)
i had to drag myself out of bed this morning
i've been feeling sucky ever since my results came out
but i will not bow down to circumstances!!!!! i will rise above it!

2008-12-27T21:08:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
i just got back from class:)
went to J8 with my parents
we had dinner and snowy ice!!!:) yum yum
then we walked around abit and came back

i love today:):)
feels like its been a long while since i genuinely enjoyed a day.

school is starting SOON!
results coming out EVEN SOOOOOOOOONER!

2008-12-22T21:00:00.002+08:00

HELLO:)
just got back from class and did some Christmas pressie shopping

cant wait for Christmas to come!!!!!:) heh heh heh
then after christmas, im going to get back my exam results.
BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!
nerve wrecking!
then after that,
SCHOOL STARTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
new sem, new classmates, new time table, new modules
NEW NEW NEW NEW NEW!
got to learn to adapt again

im snacking and watching my current favourite tv show online
yum yum
im enjoying my life now

2008-12-13T21:38:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO
im proud to announce that my sore throat is GOOOOOOOONE
but wah i was having this terrible bone ache in the morning
my back had the aching pain. i felt like crap getting out of bed
then by the time i got to church, i felt like sleeping!
then by the time service and all ended, i was really tired
but i still stubbornly decided that i NEED to hit the streets
then by the time i decided i really needed to head home to rest,
i was REEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAALLY tired
my feet was aching, my everything was just falling apart
i felt like i could faint any minute
by the time i got back,
i lied in bed and fell asleep:) happily

my nose is blocked
AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGH
hate it.

made myself a bottle of honey lemon lime water for tmr:)
heh heh heh
cant wait to sip it thru the day!

2008-12-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

im feeling so tired and sleepy and just tired in every way
if i were to lie on a bed now, i would just fall asleep
my body is tired
my mind is tired
im emotionally mentally physically tired.
im going to sleep real soon

ive been feeling lonely
thats what not having many friends does to a person
thats what being fake does to a person
i guess everyone on earth, including me
just wants to be loved and feel loved.

i realise this
the only diff whether u really love or not
is whether u expect something good in return for your acts of love and kindness.
stupid.

2008-12-10T22:23:00.001+08:00

I was just waiting for your phone call
When they came along to say
That a rose done chased you clear away
You had said I was gamine
But we didn't mean the same thing i think
Broke my choux pastry heart
Guess life's, no picture post card
One for sorrow
Two for joy
Sometimes you win or sometimes you lose
I don't wanna lose you
Don't even own you
I just wanna stay right here
Until never dawns yeah
Oooooh
Mmmmmm
I was just waiting for your answer(Still)
You made your own apologies
I cried so much I had to leave
Three for a girl
Four for a boy
Sometimes you win or sometimes you lose
I don't wanna lose you
Don't even own you
I just wanna stay right here
Until never dawns yeah

2008-12-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

its times like these that i feel absolutely like crap
i just wish i had a friend
a confidant
someone to listen to me
to hear whats really in me
someone who'll listen without a reaction
just hear my unheard voice
this is the place for me to rant and no one would give a shit:)

today i learn that we make decisions constantly to shut our hearts to stop loving people cause of hurts/betrayal that have been done to us
and when such decisions are made,
another decision has to be made to open our hearts to love again
and when u make that decision,
be prepared. very prepared to be hurt/betrayed the same way again
it gets even harder when a couple has gone through sexual intimacy
its harder for the ladies to forgive and open their hearts to love again

life is such a chore sometimes
everyday is a tiring day
we make decisions constantly that we regret and have to undo eventually

seriously
if i knew things would turn out this way
i would have protected myself
now
im just trying to pick up the pieces and move on
i will get better:)

*just like a star across the sky
just like an angel off the page
you have appeared to my life
feel like i'll never be the same

2008-12-08T15:43:00.003+08:00

hello hello hello:)
going out later on at night for dinner and maybe a little shopping
im bored
managed to catch up on all my lost sleep today
slept till like 10.30am then got up and had breakfast and lunch then slept again
now i feel all energised
the weather is just perfect for sleeping today!:)
im so bored.

2008-12-07T19:18:00.003+08:00

spectacular spectacular CHRISTMAS!
A day out with my sister:)

hello dear friends!!!!:)

i just came back from CHURCH CAMP!!!

heh heh heh

i had so so so so so so much fun!

especially during the last night

we stayed up had supper, had coffee at starbucks at like 4 plus

then i went to sleep at like 6am till 10am

we had so much fun

i just went running

cause i was in the mood

its so once in a blue moon:)

now i feel so satisfied

do u wanna be a beautiful work of art?

i enjoyed today's youth service at church

i realise to be a work of art is simply to be die to yourself and low others

i mean its like jesus who died on the cross to love us

his dying scene in passion of christ was simply a work of art
:) im happy

going out with rebec and nat tmr for dinner at town

going to eat the jap food at cuppage plaza

:) cant wait to eat the curry rice. yum yum

2008-12-01T22:28:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
check out my nail-less toe!

its that last toe with no colour on it. the WHOLE nail dropped out on sunday

i kinda think that its pretty comfy without a nail.

cause at least when i wear a fitting shoe,

the toe doesnt feel squashed and the nail is not cutting my other toe:)

i think it looks so funny

each time i look at my feet, i feel like laughing cause it looks so funny without a nail

reminds me of that movie with the villain called 'thumb-thumb'

just came back from town

spent the whole day at town with my sister:)

we went to see the xmas lights!!!

WOOHOO! so BEAUTIFUL i must say!

we took a whole lot of photos and they're all on facebook.

we had dinner at Island Cafe at tangs. MMmmm:) the food was SPLENDID

so yummy!

then we walked down all the way t somerset and we had desert at fish n co

yum yum!

enjoyed my day!

tmr will be another LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG day at austin hill

then im going to come back to pack for church camp

then on wednesday i'll be leaving for CHURCH CAMP!!!

at berjaya times sq!

oh it just so spells F-U-N!:)

i'll talk to u guys again when i get back!

2008-11-29T19:18:00.003+08:00

been thinking
2008 is coming to an end
this year has been an eventful year
1) started off the yr with Jesus Bride
2) went to HONG KONG!!!:)
3) went to BINTAN!!!!:)
4) went to a new school!!!!:)
5) dad ended up in a hospital!!!!!:(
yup eventful indeed
now im sitting on a hospital bed typing this
cause my dad is in the EDTU under observation cause he is breathless again
so now im sitting here in NUH again. AGAIN. the dreaded place.
then i'll be going off for church camp next wednesday!!!
WOOTS~!

oh yes. read the papers. that poor lady that got killed by the mumbai terrorists
so poor thing
i thought it would be a man that got caught as hostage
didnt think that it would be a lady
painful death

2008-11-29T19:07:00.002+08:00

My gift is my song and this one's for you /And you can tell everybody that this is your song/ It may be quite simple but now that it's done/ I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind/ That I put down in words/ How wonderful life is now you're in the world/ I sat on the roof and I kicked off the moss/ Well some of these verses, well they, they got me quite cross/ But the sun's been kind while I wrote this song/ It's for people like you and I that keep it turned on/ So excuse me forgetting, but these things I do/ You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue/ And, well the thing is, what I really mean/ Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen/ And you can tell everybody that this is your song/ It may be quite simple but now that it's done/ I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind/ That I put down in words/ How wonderful life is now you're in the world/ I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind/ That I put down in words/ How wonderful life is now you're in the world

2008-11-29T00:34:00.003+08:00

i changed my blogsking again!!!:)
i didnt really like the previous one
so i decided to change it!:)
yep! and now i added a new playlist and a new tagboard
im happy

watching 'House' now while doing all this

ever since hols started, my life has been moving rather slowly
havent really been doing anything much
just disciple class and my home and maybe town
and when im home, im reading or watching tv or playing my lappy
as i was saying, im starting on 'captivating' again
and now my daddy just got me this book titled 'why true love waits'
i decided i need to read these books to help myself

i love my timtams!!!! my mummy bought me one pack:)

oh oh and next week, i'll be off and away to MALAYSIA for
CHURCH CAMP!!!!!
WOOHOOO~!
finally my holidays are starting!:)

oh i went down town just this monday and i saw the christmas lights:)
its really pretty i must say!
all the colourful candies and christmas trees!
oh i simply love the one infront of rafflescity!
its so BIG and BEAUTIFUL!
i wanna go down town again some time soon to check out EVERY single shopping centre's decoration and get myself into the FULL CHRISTMAS MOOD!:)
simply lovin' it!

2008-11-27T12:23:00.002+08:00

I CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN!!!:)
im glad i did it!
i was just reading the book 'captivating' and decided i need to change my blogskin
i dont know how that links but i guess it does
i suddenly feel all feminine and powerful and oh perfect
all women should feel this way bout themselves
beauty is the essence of all women
the world really depreciates beauty to just physical beauty
but there REALLY is more to beauty
beauty is the essence of all WOMEN!
there is something so beautiful in the form, spirit yadah yadah of all women!

im feeling so relaxed and happy cause my exams are over
and i survived one sem!!!!
my next sem's time table is out
its kinda alright i guess
cause im not taking econs so its not as packed as other people's
but there are just many days that i end at like 6.30
the worst day has to be friday
it starts at 2.30 and ends at 6.30pm
oh well. i might change that day's schedule.
then i'll need to consider my electives too!
okay no time to talk
going out soon:)
BYE!

2008-11-13T14:15:00.002+08:00

hello friends:)
its my exam period now.
been really busy studying and all
i've been so deprived of shopping, movies, and all the fun things normal people do
ever since sch started!!!
im like such a sad person now.
im just waiting for hols to come in dec!!!!:)
WOOHOO~! then i'll be going to church camp in malaysia, then to do some good satisfying shopping and catch some movies like AUSTRALIA!!!! BAND OF LIES!!!! AHHH!!!!
im so looking forward!!!
and im also looking forward to CHRISTMAS!!!
since i've been so bored studying and all,
i've alr started planning for my xmas!!! heh:)
im so excited for christmas and my movies and my shopping.
cant wait to catch australia! nicole kidman and hugh jackman OMG! so hot!!!! haha!
im going to start studying for my next monday's paper.
see you ard!

2008-10-19T22:53:00.002+08:00

thats my new sponge wongey bobby!!!:)
now i have two spongebob keychains, one patrick key chain, one spongebob pencil case and now, A SPONGEBOB SOFT TOY!!!!:) YIPEEEEE!
my WORLD REJOICES!
i hug it to sleep every night! its just too cute!!!:)

2008-09-24T23:58:00.002+08:00

im so tired im seeing stars
im sitting at my dad's bedside everyday from morning to night.
making sure he is comfortable despite his pain
and trying my best to be efficient in doing my sch work
im tired
but im not getting anything done when it comes to sch work
i need to breathe.
just finish discussing proj stuff online
i just want this to end!

2008-09-13T01:51:00.003+08:00

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG day
my day started out as usual.
woke up in the morning at 7.05am
looked out of the window and realised it was looking rather gloomy
boarded the bus at 7.40am
attended class from 8.30 to 11am
had subway at 11.30am
'1 new message'- my dad got admitted into the hospital
i got a shock when i read the message
i looked to my friend and told her the news jokingly
then she was like 'why are u laughing?'
i got a shock and realised i was laughing
then reality started sinking in after a while
i started feeling so so scared inside
like a duck looking calm outside but paddling crazily underwater
but i had to continue doing my project with my groupmates
so i hung on for another 2 more hours till i completed my work
then i rushed to the hosp.

im home now.
my dad is not.
i miss him.
still dont know whats wrong.
got to wait till monday.
im scared. but my life has to go on.
got a test on wednesday
im trying to study for it. but its alittle hard trying to get things in,
now that i have my dad in my mind.
but i've got to try.
its all just a case of BAD TIMING.

i've got no mood to do anything else.
my mother is so worried she lost her appetite and her sleep
im scared.
uncertain bout tmr.
but i know i shld just live today and not worry bout tmr
easier said than done.

2008-09-10T13:30:00.002+08:00

Some say love it is a river that drowns the tender reed
Some say love it is a razer that leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love it is a hunger an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower and you it's only seed
It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give
and the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snows lies the seed
that with the sun's love in the spring becomes the rose

im so bored with my work!!! so here i am. blogging:) i like this song. old song but nice song.

2008-09-07T22:09:00.002+08:00

my mummy's birthday dinner:) THAI FOOD! WOOOTS~!
this is really late but who cares. see that heart in the sky? my sister took it during the ndp parade from the house:)

hello fellow earthlings!!! I've been really busy with school so i havent found the time to blog until now. i had a crazy time trying to get used to the uni environment. everyone is so stressed and scared and competitive and the workload is mad. like i have projects that come one after another(deadlines every two weeks!!!!) and i have hw to do and i have to revise my work! but im glad im getting used to it and im gradually starting to adapt to my new life! going to school on tues thurs friday, doing my work, studying. its all starting to feel okay. like jc all over again. now i have time to relax and do the things i like to do during the weekends:) im happy:)

went sentosa with the gang yesterday:) and boy am i glad that i applied sun block!!!! my back got burnt cause i didnt apply it on my back and now its hurting like MAD!!! i hate going to beaches... i get burnt like SUPER ULTRA easily! thank goodness its just my back and not my face or shoulders! i had a terrible experience the last time at the beach!

2008-08-24T15:18:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!!:)

went crazy over the weekend cause of school.
i was so stressed.
cause i didnt know my work and everything.
but im much better now:):):):)
not stressed anymore after saturday's disciple class.
i feel so relaxed now compared to friday night!!!
i couldnt sleep well on friday night cause my WHOLE MIND was still running bout my school work the whole night!!!!
i was so so so tired the next day
but im glad my nightmare is all over!!!

oh oh i must tell u something jeshua, this 3 yr old boy, did.
it was raining outside and he wanted to leave this place
so he shouted ' rain stop in jesus name!!!!'
then the next sentence was ' okay.. lets go take umbrella.'
hahhaha!!! i couldnt stop laughing!

i'll be going over to boon lay tmr for the whole week
got to get used to it. no tv.
no ugly betty
no project runway
no csi
no criminal minds
............................................. its okay!!!!!! i'll adapt! i'll adopt my new life!!!!!

2008-08-18T19:16:00.000+08:00

my friends left for canada today. im sad.
i sent them off today with grace nat rebec auntie serene janah and jeshua.
i nearly cried at one point! im really going to miss them
especially JUDITH aka 'DA BOON'
i came up with that name for her
cause she started calling me 'DA NOOB' cause i wrote on my own wall on facebook! ha!
oh well. yeah.
so i decided to call her 'DA BOON' cause if i were to turn NOOB around, it spells B-O-O-N.
i'll miss her
shes the only one that gets excited about guys!
shes the one of the few that thinks kiddy games are fun!
shes one of the few that enjoys licking the clam shells when u cant pry them open!
shes like me! when shes around, i dont feel like im such a weirdo.
but yeah. im going to miss her now!
i wont get to see her till 2 years later. which is like LOOOOOOOOOOOONG!
hopefully i'll get to see her by the end of this year again.
now im left with a shawl ,that they got for me, to remind me of them!
jabez is so so so smart. like he is going to UPenn after he gets back to canada.
im going to miss him too! i must say this again. he looks like howard lo. yes! i cant stand it.
uncle james, they're dad, is a really nice guy too!
they're just such a wonderful family and im glad i crossed paths with them and they are a part of my life. they're such a blessing to me!:) I LOVE THEM!!!!

then i went to the zoo!!!
didnt step into that place for like more than 10 years!
ha! it has definitely changed alot!
enjoyed myself there cause of them company:)

going to school tmr.
i know i'll survive a day
i know i will
a day at a time and three years would be over soon.
i know it will.

i have a destiny
i know i shall fulfill
i have a destiny in a city on a hill
i have a destiny
its not an empty wish
for i know
i was born
for such a time as this.

2008-08-18T18:06:00.002+08:00

this is ' DA BOON'!!!! i love my boonie! i'll miss her!
the gathering of the feet
this is 'da boon's brother! jabez! he left today too! going to UPenn:(

2008-08-15T15:15:00.000+08:00

hellO!!!! im in school and im feeling sleep!

2008-08-10T01:11:00.001+08:00

this is SO SO SO FUNNY!!!! its called a funny happy birthday song. dont take it too seriously. just laugh.

2008-08-10T00:13:00.002+08:00

and this is to my dear friend NATALIE TANG! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!

went to high street centre to view the fireworks just now.
it was a total disappointment cause we couldnt see the fireworks!!!
it was so terrible cause of the thick smoke that was covering the beautiful colours.
the ones i saw last week were so much better than this week's.
thank god i went down to see it last week

im really bothered today.
i woke up feeling fine but as the day went on, my mind went mad again
im tired.
i am glad that since school has started, i wont have time to be occupied by some silly mundane things. but i realised that its so temporal! during the weekends, reality sinks in.
i shall not go into details but yeah. it sucks.
i dont realise all these things when im busy studying.
but when weekends come and i can relax for abit, all these things sink in.
and thats when i start looking forward to school.
the cycle continues. its a vicious cycle.

i want to post more wedding photos but i've been unable to cause of some connection problem. sickening.

2008-08-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

HELLOO! just came back from a church friend's wedding held at meritus mandarin.
the food was goood:)
it was a smart choice that i chose a dress that was loose fitting round the stomach area so that i can stuff more food into my system:)
i danced twice during the wedding. i enjoyed the second dance the most!
ha! cause i like to use the tambourine to dance. its like my FAVOURITE!
oh and i must thank my sister for putting on my make up for me:) im quite a toot at that.
had fun take photos with people today.

went to school today for like one and a half hour for some seminar type lesson.
we were split into groups for the project today and its like due in 3 wks time!!!!
and like i have to write 5 essays.
yes! you got it! its MAD! its INSANE! its CRAZY! its RIDICULOUS! its UNREASONABLE!
its the first week of school!
oh but i guess i just have to get used to it.

but im actually quite glad that school started.
i like the feeling of saying 'im studying!'
or like ' im doing my project!'
at least i have something constructive to think about and to do.
i wont be wasting my time walking round the house thinking of stupid mundane things.
life is too short! its meant to be lived well!!!

2008-08-09T00:27:00.002+08:00

this is faith:) we dance tog quite often and i must say, she is pretty good at it! oh and we had fun dancing tog during the wedding!
this is my favourith lil' girl! elizabeth!!!! the girl in the stripped dress. she's the girl that i give mandarin tuition to. shes a smart lil mgs girl! so pretty isnt she! and thats janah:) shes a pretty lil nine year old.
and this is lil jeshua! he is janah's brother and is only 3 this year. he is so CUTE! he's the only guy that calls me an angel! ha! i love him!
and this. oh. needs no introduction. its called a bevy of girls! a group of babes! ha!they're my church youth group girls:) i laugh cry sing play with these people.

2008-08-04T22:52:00.002+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!
my day started well today. god must have planned it for me
i went to meet hilly today to go to school tog
and i didnt even know she'll be going to a prayer meeting
but anyhow, i still went along with her
and im quite glad i did actually!
cause i figured that it was good that i started my year, my day with God in mind.
not haphazardly or anything.
then we had a talk in the auditorium.
and the profs were just going on and on bout how hard it is to get into ntu business an accountancy
it was then that reality set in and i had my goosebumps!
i realised i did not work really hard to enter into this course
i didnt even have to appeal to enter
i just applied for one school, one course and was so confident in the lord that i will enter
and i did. it was just purely a miracle that i actually entered.
i mean my grades were a miracle alr to begin with!
then as the day went by, i learnt bout the whole criteria for dean's list and Banking and Finance course, i was just so confident that god will help me to get into it. i dont have to worry or to work SUPER hard for it like everyone else does.
its abit crazy when i think about it.
and i decided im not going to take up any electives this semester
i think majority of the people in my class are going to take it but i decided not to do so cause god said so. heh:) im happy.

im going to have 2 lect back to back tmr! 4 hours straight
one on business law and one on accountancy.
i just printed my lecture notes. i do not see a reason why i have to print my lect notes on course outline. waste my INK!!!!!
but im excited bout school!
i decided im not going to bring my laptop to school cause no one is bringing and i doubt i will be using it at all cause i alr printed all the things i need and i wont be needing it for lect:)

i realised my tutorial mates are all SUPER UBER smart.
like one is on a navy scholarship, one from RJC, quite a few from NJC and blah blah.
then i look at myself and stand amazed.
how did i, michelle goh, end up in a school like ntu?
i can only come to this conclusion.
its God.

2008-08-04T00:12:00.001+08:00

2008-08-03T21:48:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL IS STARTING IN A FEW HOURS TIME!!!
hahah! im so so so excited for school!
but im scared at the same time! oh well.
im going to have to make friends!
and ha! im going mad i tell you!
i already planned what im going to wear tmr , tues and friday!!!
and tonight, while watching pushing daisies, im going to buff my nails:)
then continue buffing my nails until its glossy and pretty!
then im going to pack my bag!
ha! then i'll sleep.
im so excited
i think i wont be able to sleep after waking up at 5am later on!
ha! but i wouldnt mind:)
oh oh my sister just introduced me to this interesting website where i can design my own background! i know. im real slow. but oh well. i dont know how to use photoshop but that thingy is really idiot proof. so YEAH TO ME!:)
i think im falling sick
my sinus thing is coming back again.
i can sense it!
its evil.
my nose is getting blocked.
what a time to fall sick and have zits on my face!
IM GOING TO MEET NEW PEOPLE TMR!!!!
i went to see the fireworks last night!
oh it was BEAUTIFUL!!!!!
haha! i walked to that bridge road thingy near fullerton
the view from there is PERFECT! the fireworks was like IN MY FACE.
it was like SHOOTING AT ME!
the WHOLE SKY WAS GOLD at one point
it was so nice!
oh but going to see the fireworks just reminds me of one thing
i need to go with the right person next time!
dang.

2008-07-31T21:41:00.002+08:00

HELLO!!!

school is starting in a FEW DAYS TIME!!!
im excited and scared at the same time!
i got my time table and i'll be free on MON and WED!!!
heh:) *happiness*
but thurs will be a shitttttty day!
my thursdays will start at 830 and only end at 630! with only a two hour break in btw for lunch.
OH!!! i will so dread thurs and be super grouchy by the end of the day!
i will never forget how grouchy i always will be during my JC days when we had to stay back for PE at 4pm!
never liked it!
oh well. but i think as much as i dread mondays games and stuff, it should be fun getting to know new people. i hope. im alittle apprehensive bout it.

got to know two new people over the weekends:)
they're like canadians. they're really nice people.
jabez and judith.
i found out that im alot like the girl.
like we enjoy the same kinda games and stuff
ha! i had so much fun hanging out with them on tues! we hung out the WHOLE day till at night!
how nice it would be if they never had to leave for nepal!
but its alright! they'll be back soooooooooon!!!!
i went to watch red cliff with them on tues! i must say its a really smart show!
i was just blown away by the whole war strategy thingy.
like how zhu ge liang managed to figure out his opponents and come out with a reallly 'invincible' strategy! i cant stand it! like he is so so so so darn smart!

im really sleepy alr!! but im going to watch my antm before sleeping so im going to go off now to place my butt on the sofa in front of the tv in time! goodbye!

2008-07-26T21:24:00.002+08:00

HELLO!:)

had an ultra loooooooooooong day ytd!
went out for the usual office class at tanjong pagar
then went for lunch with auntie serene and nat
then nat and i hung out at a lil dark corner we found at swiss'otel
HA! we're like darn good at such things!
when we were in JC, we sneeked into a secret stairway and found a mystery passage way to the school library, that was under renovation at that time. HA! i tell u. we are damn good at it!

i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed a dress!!!!!! i cant stand it!
i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed a dress for THE wedding!

was talking to someone from church today and
boy oh boy! we're like in the same shit together!
feels nice to know that someone is in the same shit as me.

CONGRATS BENJY ON YOUR GRADUATION!!!!
i feeeeel so so so inspired again when i heard that today is benjy's convocation.
its like WHOAH! ONE DAY THREE YEARS LATER IT'LL BE ME!
im excited bout it and i cant wait to graduate!
then after that, im going to start working at prudential then im going to get my driving license, then get a car, then START MY LIFE!
OH IM SO EXCITED!:)
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2008-07-23T22:57:00.002+08:00

its been just three days. but this week hasnt been good so far.
started from last week i guess. i've been keeping a secret the whole of last week and it didnt feel good at all! so i managed to say the truth out without being slaughtered for lying. and thank god i did that cause i think if i didnt, i wouldnt be prepared to face the other things that were coming my way.
been dreaming alot this week. about people around me, bout my family, bout myself.
i tell u. i think im going mad. i woke up ytd crying. and i ended the day crying. i guess i just havent been myself lately. got up this morning with swollen eyes. so ugly.
i just keep telling myself 'i'll be fine. i always will'
i guess i gave myself false hopes and im suffering for it now. and im trying to be the saviour to every situation. and my unlimited wants has proven to be my down fall this week.
well.... i just got to keep telling myself 'the lord is my shepherd. i shall not be in want.'
and school is starting the week after next and i found out that we'll be playing games on the first day of school to get to know our classmates. i hate games. i hate games that get to know people. its dumb and seriously. i dont need games to know someone. i have a mouth that can spit words out by itself. i think im just going to run away with hilly!!! ha!

well enough of emo talk.
i just found out that THE WORLD IS SO SO SO SO SO SMALL TODAY!
like seee.
1) faith's sister works with my mother
2) faith's school mate was in my CJ and happened to be my friend's ex girlfriend who is now with my friend's best friend.
3) eunice's teacher in JC is my JC teacher's wife
SMALL WORLD INDEED!

2008-07-22T13:55:00.002+08:00

i had a really strange morning.

got up at 10 plus after a very weird dream.

somethings wrong with me.

i think im so super used to being so loud outside that i neglected the real me... which i think isnt as loud. erh..... yeah i hope i didnt sound like im contradicting myself.

anyway, life goes on no matter what happens. im going to leave my house soon to give tuition to elizabeth. then im probably going to swim there then head home and have dinner.

i know i sound mad k! but you know what. i think i need to find myself.

i guess as we walk on this road of life, we kinda lose ourself along the way as hurts and bad experiences come and steal a part of us away. and we become somebody we're not in order to hide it all and tell yourself that its alright when it isnt. at all.

school is really starting soon!!! just one week and 6 more days to go!!

i just got an email from ntu saying that i can be exempted from taking principles of econs cause i got an A in Alevels for econs. but the thing is!!! if im planning to take actuarial science in yr2, i cant accept this exemption! plus!!! my econs aint that good. my A was a miracle from God! but the thing is! i dont wanna study econs again and have to sit for the exams! YUCK! so i dont know what to do. accept the exemption or not. i'll just have to pray abt it AGAIN.

i feel like i have lotsa things to do this week. im feeling so stressed for no reason! i need to write it down to destress and show myself that its not that bad!:)

oh by the way, i LOVE my background and i LOVE the music player:)

2008-07-21T16:34:00.002+08:00

HEY Y'ALL!!!!!

i just got a new player on my blog all thx to faith who taught me how to do it!!!
i've been trying to figure it out for quite some time alr but never really got it until i met HER:)
heh.
i had the funniest dream last night.
i dream that faith and i were pregnant!!! but i didnt even have any intercourse with anyone!!!! but i was like quite happy in the dream that i was pregnant. then i was telling everyone that ' hey isnt it weird that im going to be pregnant and having a baby when im in uni?' haha! its VERY VERY WEIRD! and the best part was that everyone was happy with me! haha! oh well. i keep getting weird dreams.
like the previous night, i dreamt that i met my future husband and he turned out to be some ah beng and nat's future husband was a nigger! ahahahahh! oh well!

oh yes before i forget!!! you guys need to watch the video in my previous post! its DAMN funny!!!!!!!!!!! you'll regret it if u dont watch it! SERIOUSLY!

oh yes and i slept till 12 today!!!! im such a slacker! i think i lost quite abit of sleep during the weekends so yeah. i made it up by sleeping till 12 today! ha! and i got up to have my lunch IMMEDIATELY!

2008-07-21T00:36:00.001+08:00

i love howard low and shan wee and shane mardjuki!!! ahaha! i think they're all goodlooking in their own way and this video is hilarious!!! ENJOY!

2008-07-19T21:47:00.003+08:00

HELLO!

im having some troubles posting my photos bout my little excursion i went today.
i went to the frog farm, the pottery factory, organic veg farm and the farm mart.
i was so so so so so tired by the end of everything.
firstly, i only had like four hours of sleep.
secondly, nothing about excursions interest me at all.
oh oh except the part where we get to buy frogs home to cook! hah!
and i must say the company wasnt that bad!
alisa wee came along with us!
i was mostly talking to lovey and miracle which was rather fun i must say!
and when we were at the pottery factory, auntie ser and i were doing the re-enactment of a part of the movie 'Ghost'! hahah! it was so funny!
'Ghost' is simply a CLASSIC! i watched the movie so many times and each time i watched, i would be tearing at the end of the movie!
then auntie ser found out that my name has a REALLY DEEP MEANING!
and i must say she is really witty!!!!!
my name is MICHELLE GOH! so whenever u need a favour from anyone, and u ask 'who shall help me do_____?' and i'll be the only pathetic soul that will be ever so faithful in saying 'ME SHALL GO!' hahhaahahaha!
i like this joke. BUT BUT BUT! if at any point in time, i dont feel like going, i'll say ' ME SHALL TAN(wait in hokkien)!' haha! oh BRILLIANT!
i'll probably put the photos up another day!
another long long long day tmr:)
cant wait for monday to come when i can sleep in and just relax!
SUNDAY HERE I COME!!!!!

2008-07-19T00:03:00.002+08:00

MY NEW STUFF I GOT FOR SCHOOL!!!! my new tops and pants and my little purse lying in the middle!!!

my sister got me a new watch that looks like a charm bracelet:)
my new haversack for school!
my new spongebob pencil case i got from hong kong!! isnt it just so adorable!!!

alrighty! let me tell u more about my new stuff! heh:)

firstly, im REALLY happy i've got new stuff for school! its making me so excited for schooL! i cant wait!

okay now im going to get down to the serious stuff!

do u know that one of my new top, the purple one, is only HK$20? ha! yes!cheap like dirt!

and i got my mango skinny dirty green pants for 25 bucks! i love myself!

and that green top? its from hong kong H&M and it only cost HK$99! which is only 20 sing dollar!

and the my sister got me the other two tops from hong kong

my WONDERFUL sister surprised me with that pretty watch today! :)

and i got my spongebob pencil case for only HK$34! its real nice with three compartments!!

and my haversack is from holland V and it only cost 20 bucks! dont u love me too!!!!?

oh oh i nearly forgot my pretty H&M purse! its from HK too! but i forgot the price...

yup! thats about it! oh yes!

i do have another black top but i didnt take a photo of it cause its BLACK. but its so so so so so nice! my sister got it for me from Marks&Spencer:)

im so happy and i CANT WAIT for sch to start!

sch is starting real real real soon! i hope im ready to face whatever is to come.

im quite scared when i try to imagine what might happen.

i mean uni is quite scary cause im like entering a different phase of my life.

who knows what might come my way! i do not want what happened in CJ to happen again in uni! once is enough to cause me enough pain to leave a scar for life.

pls god. make me strong enough! thats all i ask!

i really hate seeing bus 105 and 153 early in the morning.

each time i see it, i get reminded of my CJ days cause those two buses are the buses i take to school every morning!

i hate that feeling!

its the dreadful sickening feeling with a tinge of sadness.

never enjoyed CJ days. im just glad its over.

i felt like shit the other day when i went back to get my cert.

i nearly wanted to start squirming on the bus! ha!

OH WELL! im just glad its over.

2008-07-16T17:56:00.003+08:00

nat i auntie annie with our wonderful creations!

from the left: bread, brownie, uncooked dumplings:) yum!

hey hey BEAUTIFUL people!
i love the video and the song up there:) it really comforts me ALOT! so i hope it'll do the same for u:)

was busy the whole of yesterday!
went to auntie annie's house to cook from 10am to like at night!!!
nat and i and auntie annie were all SUPER exhausted by the end of the day!
but we had alot of fun cooking tog!
auntie annie taught us some real good dishes!
like dumplings, sausage buns, red bean paste buns, banana and red bean paste wrapped with spring roll skin, brownie, shanghai pancake!
we had alot of food for grace's party!
oh yes i forgot to mention this.
we learnt how to cook for two reasons:
1)for our own selfish purposes
2) for graceie!!!!
yes. and when we surprised grace with flowers and a special song item, she CRIED! ha!
i simply just enjoy watching and making people cry on their birthdays!
could you all just make ma cry on my birthday too? i really would like to feel how that would feel like!

and i have a new tv!!!ha!
its like HUGE! and flat screeeeeeeeeen
its 42 inches:)
yes. but im not that excited bout it! my laptop is better!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY better!

im learning how not to run away from awkward situations right now. but to face them and deal with my own crazy emotions and thoughts. i have to! i cant keep running away! then how can i bring any change to myself?! yes! i must and i will! and im learning to walk away from things that will harm me. notice the difference in terms used? when im more than willing to escape from certain situations, the term used is 'run' but when im really reluctant to leave, the term used is 'walk'. i wish there was a slower term used! i wanna just linger on for a little while more. im REALLY reluctant. and i get angry sometimes when i think bout it. cause i WANT TO DO THINGS MY WAY AND RUN MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT TO RUN IT. but of course. these thoughts are just thoughts. they dont last for more than a day and they are not put into action. fortunate or not? u decide.

WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH,THE TOUGH WILL GET GOING!!!

2008-07-14T16:31:00.002+08:00

feeling a little weird today.
couldnt sleep last night till like 2plus.
slept till 11 plus today and i was still sleepy. i thought it was still 9plus.
mixed emotions i guess.
lotsa things running round my mind today
guess ytd was just too happening for me.

so i bumped into that old friend yesterday.
feels weird. even till now.
things really happen when u least expect it.
god really gives u things that alr doesnt matter to u anymore so that u wont die from having it.
i really didnt need to bump into my friend yesterday.
i mean.. compared to four years ago, i really wanted it.
but now its just.... a 'oh okay i see my friend' kinda thing.
im very weird today. thats all.

and last night was even weirder.
but i shant talk about last night!:)

cleaned my very dusty table today
now i have a really clean table for me to work on when im on my laptop!:)
ha! did alot of things today.
going to auntie annie's house to cook for grace's bday!
i cant wait to learn how to make bread, dumplings and brownie! heh.
exciting!

such a weird day today. i feel weird. too many things in my head. i cant get my mind to focus on doing anything. my head is just all over the place. u know what i mean? yeah its just one of those days i guess. i hope!

2008-07-13T21:08:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey GOOD LOOKING FRIENDS!
guess what! i bumped into this OLD OLD OLD OLD time friend.
yeah... like FOUR years old!!!!!
i didnt expect it AT ALL! so i was... pleasantly surprised?
oh well. its over. didnt talk. just acknowledged his presence:)

heh. im typing on my new laptop!
haha! its real nice! really!
REAL nice.

went to church today:)
feel so so so so sweet for CLINTON and FAITH!!! haha
such a sweet cute couple. hhahah

im just being ultra random here. cause i REALLY just wanna type! so dont mind me.

im starting sch on 4th aug!
im going to make my tertiary ezlink card tmr:)
im SO SO SO cool now.
im going to NTU business!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!
NEW LIFE HERE I COME! FEW MORE WEEKS TO GO!!!!!
i got new colthes! new pencil case! new bag! new stationery! hahah! IM SO COOL!

2008-06-12T20:12:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO!

i forgot to tell you guys this.
I GOT A NEW HAIRCUT:) heh. yes its no longer at my shoulders!

i just went for dance practice today with my friends and BOY DID I HAVE FUN!!! we danced from 9am to 3pm. danced till our legs are aching from all the crazy jumping! we went to the dance studio at paya lebar met church. going back there felt like going back to school! its the very ' oh im back to the good old days' feeling. i forgot the word for it. i think it sounds similar to nonchalant and reminiscent. i FORGOT LA! heh.

my sister will be leaving for HK on saturday! another week of lonely nights infront of the tv! its always better to watch tv with someone else. oh well. at least this time its JUST a week.

2008-06-12T19:33:00.002+08:00

check out the mini alcohol bottles in the mini bar!
thats how clear the water at the beach is!

2008-06-12T18:58:00.002+08:00

this is where i had my dinner and breakfast on the 2nd day:) they serve bread, soup, wide variety of accompaniments, cakes, ice cream, fruits, salad.
this is what i see when i stand at the balcony of my room:) trees bushes and THE villas.
this is the LARGE AWESOME BREATH TAKING swimming pool:) i loved it! swam everyday when i was there!

2008-06-12T18:20:00.002+08:00

my family and i queuing at bintan ferry terminal:)
i have arrived at Bintan Lagoon Resort!!!! and im all excited to go swimming straight after checking in!
this is where we had dinner on our first night:) this place serves seafood and steak! i LOVED their mussels and lamb chop!!! i ate 11 mussels at one go:)

2008-06-07T23:42:00.003+08:00

GOOD DAY MY DEAREST READERS!!!!!:)

as some of you may alr know, i went to Hong Kong with nat fron 20 to 24 May:) and i recently came back on 4th June from Bintan with my family.
Hong kong: it was my first time on a plane and i was with nat my dear friend:) i was so so so happy i tell you! and on our first day there at hong kong, the weather was PERFECT! it was less than 22deg but it was raining. so we were walking in the rain most of the time. it was only till evening that we got ourselves ponchos:) we met a cat that nat called lily. and cause we were on a free and easy tour, we were travelling ard by their public transport. and i mus say HK really has a very efficient public transport system! we found so mych good and interesting food in HK! we found a cld mix and match noodle, this other weird thing that people eat in a cup and we kept on eating at back alleys! and nat wanted to be a mafia's girlfriend!!! hahaha! we even planned our crazy meeting with the mafia! and we bought funky shades from hk! and we found out where our shit goes to when it leaves our arses! we dug our hands into our hotel room's toilet bowl and flushed it! hhaahhaha! we were too bored in our room! so so so many things happened.
Bintan: went to bintan with my family from 2-4th june:) it was a really last min thing. we had alot of fun! we swam and swam and swam and went to the beach and went to the beach and ate and ate:) there really isnt anything to do at bintan. i have no time to upload the photos now but i have some really cool photos of the sea:) the water is so clear and beautiful and the sand is really fine:) NEXT TIME I'LL UPLOAD IT!

oh ok i must say this really embarrassing thing that happened when i was on my way home from Bintan, in the ferry! cause i was on a half day city tour when i was in HK, so i made friends with this other young guy on the tour called kenneth. then! i bumped into that same guy on the ferry when i was on my way back from bintan! thats not the worst part! the worst thing that happened was, i was wearing the same shirt that he saw me in when i was in hk!!!! but its not fair cause we only met for a day in hk, and when i saw him in the ferry, its alr many days away!!! and the shirt i was wearing was thin and light so it was ABSOLUTELY suitable for the beach! the worst thing was, i didnt realise it. HE DID! the first thing he said to me was,' hey you're wearing the same shirt?' ARGHH!!!! i was so so so so embarrassed!!!! i didnt dare to turn back to talk to him after that and i didnt even say bye! hahaha!dont know what to say bout men.

i just went to check out the ntu website and reality has finally set in. SCHOOL IS STARTING REAL SOON! and im so not prepared for it!!!! i need to get my school bag!!!!!!!!! im real nervous bout school! new env, new people, blah blah! and i have to take my Qualifying Eng Test on 29 July! thats 5 days before school start!!! im real NERVOUS! i dont know what to expect from the QET! no one i know has to take it EXCEPT ME!!(*&^!#$$#%%#*&^@!(&$#@%&^!%#

2008-06-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

check out this cold mix and match noodles we found at some shopping centre in hk!! its only less than S$2!!!
view from 'the peak' in hk! too bad the air is really hazy!
nat and i standing at victoria harbour:)

2008-06-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

it was raining on our first day in hk. so we bought hk$5.00 poncho. haha!! dont we look like space woman! it was less than 22deg on our first day:)
we were walking back to the hotel from the bus stop. check out the mountains!
hk is so cool! they have ice cream vans that play music like those we see on tv!!!:)
nat thought she killed me in the toilet. but i DIDNT DIE IN HK!

2008-06-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

we took photo with this policewoman when we were on the half day city tour. i think shes quite pretty:)
check out my new shades:) my sister and i on the ferry on our way home from bintan:P
nat and i in our hong kong hotel room, checking out where our shit goes thru when it leaves our arses.

2008-05-15T20:50:00.003+08:00

LOVE MAKES PEOPLE DO SILLY THINGS
went running today and saw something really unteresting that got me thinking. i saw this father running after his toddler son while pushing the pram. he looked SUPER SUPER STUPID running with his pram and smiling at his REALLY ADORABLE son with his short tshirt and shorts. it just made me think that love makes people do silly things. love makes one forget about oneself and put the other party before themselves. love makes one inconvenience themselves to put a smile on another. i wonder..... how many people have i really loved?

didnt really do much this week. its been a really slow week. stayed at home alot this week! cooked dinner for my mum on monday cause of Mother's day:)
i prepared sweet and sour pork and golden mushrooms with seafood then we had mango sago with pomelo for desert:) yum yum!

im going to give tuition again tmr. i really still dont quite know what to do with that kid. i mean. she gets 95/100 for tests. WHY DOES SHE NEED TUITION?! and she pronounces her words MUCH MUCH better than me. i feel so stressed having to teach a kid like that!!!!!!!!

And now the lonely days are done

And with each rising of the sun, love begins anew

And if you ever ask me why

I know that my love will never die

Ill say these words to you

Of all the souls Ive ever known

Mine sings to yours and yours alone and yours sings just to me

In all this world Ill never find

A heart that could beat as close to mine and this time I can see

A love like this is so hard to find

And so many never do

And loves like this, when they even exist

Are precious and few, you know theyre precious and few

Down the miles, through the years

Yours is the star by which I steer, the brightest star Ive known

And when I feel all hope is gone, yours is the love that leads me on

The light that guides me home

Your light will guide me home

2008-05-01T00:34:00.003+08:00

hello again!:)

im so happy to be home on a wednesday night
i was just poking my nose into lifes of ex-cjcians and......
wow! the things i found out were really quite shocking!
so so SO many of them are teaching.
So SO SO many are learning to drive.
im probably one of the few girls bumming around! haha!

i was just dowloading podcasts and i realised there are quite a number of things in life which i'll never know. like how i'll never know why my best friend in sch just stop talking to me... and the list goes on. funny how some things are just left unsaid. i guess these are the things that i will always live to regret. ah. but i guess their insignificant compared to the better things in life, like the people i have around me now....like nat church friends.... at least im happy:)

goodbye.

Hey girl,

what is the matter you're crying your heart out again

Don't lie girl,

this was not some accident, your bruises they give you away.

Your face sighs in shades of purple,

your eyes a story of pain

Walk away,

you're worth more than he'll ever realize,

baby walk away.

Spare yourself this pain

cant you see that he's not worth it?

You're not mean to be treated this way,

baby walk away.

You say that you really love him,

you say that he'll notice someday

But your face still sighs in the purple,

your eyes tells a story of shame, walk away

You're worth more than he'll ever realize

baby walk away,

spare yourself this pain,

Cant you see that he's not worth it?

You've been waiting for his love for so many years

well girl, you may not live to see that day.

baby walk away.

your not meant to be treated this way.

baby walk away.

baby was away.

2008-04-28T21:45:00.002+08:00

GOOD EVENING FELLOW EARTHLINGS!
i fell so sick over the weekends!
it was indeed abit crazy.
it all happened real real fast.
on friday afternoon, my bones started aching.
by THAT night, i was having fever.
best part? i didnt even know until eunice touched my arm and told me im running a temp.
then by saturday afternoon, i was ready to collapse on my bed and not move for the rest of my life! haha! ok im exagerrating. but i really felt very weak.
what made it worse was i didnt get enough sleep cause we had a sleepover at church. so we slept at 2 and woke up at 8. not to mention that i woke up NUMEROUS times cause the carpet was too hard, i had no pillow(i wanted to steal one from someone) and it was TOO COLD. so yes. i felt like CRAP.
sunday morning, i literally crawled out of bed! my bones were aching and i was just so tired and weak and I CANT FIND A WORD THAT CAN REALLY DESCRIBE HOW I FELT! it was just an experience i never wanna relive again!
but i got better by sunday night.
it all came quickly and it left pretty quickly.
im just left with crazy phlegmy cough. other than that! im ALIVE AND KICKING again!:)

oh and i got a job! heh heh.
im giving tuition to this primary 1 kid. poor kids these days.
just in case you're starting to feel abit worried for this kid, do not.
im just teaching mandarin. which i can totally handle cause its not like math!
im not a bum anymore! haha:)

2008-04-24T23:35:00.002+08:00

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about

And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down and maybe

Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

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just so you know. i got accepted into ntu business school:)

school starts on 4th august!!!! WOOHOO!

new friends + new env + new curriculum = new life

i'll put my past behind and look forward to whats ahead.

i love y'all!!!!!!!!!!REALLY!

2008-04-19T19:46:00.003+08:00

at the flyer's shopping centre

on the flyer!!! net carrying one capsule with much ease and nat trying to stop him!

2008-04-19T19:03:00.002+08:00

these are the two buskers that nat played with. they can be found at the wheellock underpass. their really fun people!
my singapore flyer ticket!!!! WOOTS!!!!
the 'rainforest' at the shopping centre near the flyer. its so BEAUTIFUL!!

2008-04-19T18:24:00.002+08:00

Top: cake galore!!! yummy! the dark choc cake was perfect!
nat looking more than satisfied!! ha! thats her dessert! sea coconut and cakes

2008-04-19T17:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
it was my 19th birthday yesterday:)(18th april, friday)
i had so much fun!!!! i'll be putting up the photos gradually.
let me tell you how i spent my day first!!!!!
wait wait. it all started on thursday!
nat demanded for a trade off with me: go for a movie with her and i'll receive a card some where some how telling me bout my birthday surprise.
then on thursday, she told me to collect her apple pie from the mac counter when we were waiting for the movie to begin. i went and LO AND BEHOLD!!! that person at the counter passed me THE CARD! hahah! and i found out im going to marriott hotel for intl buffet, sgp flyer and the esplanade for chocolate dessert on my special day!

Friday,12.30pm: i met nat at the restaurant and we ate till 2.30pm. we had beef, pasta, cakes, oyster, prawns, sushi, sashimi, smoked salmon, FOOD FOOD FOOD AND MORE FOOD! we made sure the money was well spent!
2.30pm: nat told me to wait for her at isetan while she prepare another present. so i waited infront of agnes b like a GOON! finally she called and told me to get to wheellock thru the underpass. i couldnt stop smiling all the way there cause I KNEW SOMETHING GOOD WAS GOING TO HAPPEN!!! so everyone ard me thought im MAD:P true enough, when i got there, she started playing 'Happy Birthday' on her violin with the two other buskers at the underpass. i was so touched i was trying so hard to hold back my tears!
5.00pm: we were on the singapore flyer!!!!!!! we met up with kevin and we went on it together! i had so much fun! i wanted to go on it so badly when she told me she couldnt get tickets for it in jan! so i was so shocked when i found out she managed to get tickets eventually cause people cancelled their bookings. SHIOK!!!!! GOD MUST HAVE KNOWN HOW MUCH I WANTED TO GO ON IT! :) I LOVE MY PAPA GOD! everything just went my way on my bday. God gave me the best present:)
6pm: we were at esplanade sitting at the chocolate place. then suddenly, nat left cause she 'needed to go to the loo'(LIAR)! hah:) she did go to the loo la. but the real reason was cause she went to get the other girlfriends to come and surprise me. :) thx!!!

i ended my day at church at church for prayer meeting. i love my day

2008-02-28T21:27:00.003+08:00

my valentine's day present from NAT the CAT!!:) isnt it just BEAUTiful!
the cast of the CNY performance! we're all dressed up in beautiful victorian gowns:)

HELLO LADIES AND GENTLEMEN BOYS AND GIRLS!

its been a looooong looooong time.

i've been busy with ALOT of things.

well, lets see.

i was busy with rehearsals and all for this CNY performance at church.

it was a BLAST! everyone had so much fun!!!:)

and the best part? my BABYSITTER turned up!! heh.

after that, i got busy and still am busy with another 40 days of class.

by the time i come home everyday, all i wanna do is sleep!

so i havent had the time to blog.

been wanting to post the photo of my valentine's day present from nat but havent had the time to do so! she bought me a bouquet of flowers! and you know whats the best part? she actually bought all the flowers that i like!!! she chose daisies and carnations. hee. yes! i like that mother's day flower!

which is really rather frustrating!

im eagerly waiting for my results to come out.

i cant wait to receive it! and then apply for my uni course!:)

2008-01-17T10:32:00.000+08:00

GOOD DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im currently searching for some horse drawn carriage images online
bored stiff!!!!

i had so much fun last night at church!
during the sing song part, the person said we could run to the front
so i dragged eunice, who once again thought i was MAD, to the front
then everyone came to the front too.
then i suggested that we do the can can!!!!
haha! it was fun!
then as the worship went on,
i suddenly thought of forming the train!
i turned and told eunice, who ONCE AGAIN thought i was insane!
so i turned and told nat, who made me take the lead
so i ran!!!!!!!! ALL ROUND THE HALL!
after 2 rounds, i was dripping perspiration like a man!
i love last night! God was so real in so many ways!
he spoke to me during the sing song part
then i experienced the supernatural when the prophet was praying
then when my dad was praying for me,
god spoke again!
i tell you, last night was INSANE!!!!!
im gona write it all down:)
2008 has just begun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh my church is having a CNY performance on 3rd feb at 6pm at high street centre(opp parliament house)!! all you lovely people, please drop by if you're free!!! if you're not, then make it free!!! ALL ARE INVITED TO WATCH THE GOOD SHOW!
there'll be lovely victorian gowns with lovely wigs and lovely people performing!!!

2008-01-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

he dirtied his mouth while eating the chocolate fondue!! so cute
thats( from bottom left) nat me grace and rebec enjoying our lovely meal together.

2008-01-16T13:27:00.000+08:00

isnt he such a darling?! AHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEEE! SO CUTE!

2008-01-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

ISN'T HE THE CUTESTTESTERESTTESREST THING!!!! thats jeshua and jannah. i cant stand it! he is so cute i could just squeeze him so TIGHT!!!!!!

hellO!!!!

im feeling really tired and sleepy now.

went swimming with my daddy in the morning

even though my swimming costume is alittle small.

but who cares! those things are meant to be tight on land, then when you enter into water, it'll seem looser. i just needed exercise. i felt so unhealthy last night.

i had so much fun!!!

my dad was cycling and i sat behind.

i was screaming my lungs out cause i was so afraid we'll fall!

but it was fun.

i think im going to sleep later.

2008-01-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

BOOYAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

got my haircut yesterday!!!!:)
went shopping with mummy in the afternoon.
its was PREEETY productive i must say!
mummy bought a top
we bought a blouse and belt for daddy
then I got myself a pair of GAP JEANS!!! WOOHOOOOO~!!!!!!
its a pair of IMMACULATELY CUT PAIR OF SKINNY jeans,
with a PERFECTLY washed out look.
I LURVE!!!!!
then got a new pair of ballet pumps~!!!!! WOOT!!!!
its nice and glittery and black and pretty... and
OH! the number of wonderful adjectives goes on!!!!!
IM SO HAPPY!!!!

stayed at home the whole day today!
i think i spent my time quite wisely today
woke up at 9am
read
watched martha
did the chores
read
cooked dinner(OH THE CORN I PREPARED WAS MMmmmm!!!!)
watched tv!!
im going to watch tv again later at 10!
im going to have a hard time switching btw coffee prince and csi miami!!!

oh i miss my SISTER!!!! sometimes i still think she is in singapore!!!
i cant wait till she gets home!!!
then i can wear ALL my new pretty clothes:):):):):):)
like they say, the clothes make the person!!!!!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I feel pretty,
Oh, so pretty,
I feel pretty and witty and bright!
And I pity
Any girl who isn't me tonight.
I feel charming,
Oh, so charming
It's alarming how charming I feel!
And so pretty
That I hardly can believe I'm real.
See the pretty girl in that mirror there:
Who can that attractive girl be?
Such a pretty face,
Such a pretty dress,
Such a pretty smile,
Such a pretty me!
I feel stunning
And entrancing,
Feel like running and dancing for joy,
For I'm loved
By a pretty wonderful boy!

2008-01-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

:-)
im tired and lazy.

han xian yao is gone!!! he is away at camp.
oh my dear dear friend! i hope he is surviving in there!!
nat and i told him that if he gets too tired during a run, he should just run into a tree.
we love him.

went shopping for a teeny weeny while today.
couldnt get what i wanted.
but its okay! i'll hit the shops again tmr!!!
SALE! HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

led worship today. it was the craziest moment i can ever rmb!!!!!!!! on one hand, i was trying not to put up a performance cause IT ISN'T!!! on the other hand, my mind was running wild! but i managed to quieten down during the last bit after like half an hr of battling in my head! then i guess it didnt end that badly. the whole thing wasnt THAT bad. AH! who cares! worship may not have sounded nice or went smoothly or whatever. GOD STILL LOVES ME:) i bet he was smiling when he was looking down from heaven!!!!

2008-01-02T16:07:00.000+08:00

'the heart of the human problem, is the problem of the human heart'
so true.

been at home the whole day!!! but im not bored:)
woke up at 4am to spend some time with God
after which, i went back to catch MORE sleep. heh heh
then i started reading the book ' captured heart'
its VERY VERY VERY thought provoking and i did some soul checking as i was reading
initially, i never really understood what a captured heart meant
but as i read the book, i finally understand what it means.
and i realised i've only been singing nice songs all along.
i've never really had a captured heart!
reality check.

going to prepare dinner for my sister and i soon.:)
i love cooking:)
was watching martha steward today and she was teaching people how to bake this cake
it looks rather easy. i think im going to try!!!!

2007-12-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

40 days of 'green berets' training is officially over.
it has come and gone with a blink of an eye.
i cant imagine how i actually managed to survive 40 days of intense training.
i guess its really all by the grace of God.

was feeling real weak yesterday.
woke up at 6am vomitting then i couldnt eat much the whole day.
i think the only meal i ate was lunch.
but that was cause i had no choice, i had to stuff something down
cause ps john gave us a buffet treat. then i came home and rested
it was one hella of a day.

woke up feeling giddy this morning. guess its cause i didnt really consume anything yesterday
and i think as a result, my stomach shrank.
i didnt feel the need to eat(normally when im fasting lunch and breakfast, i would wanna eat like mad! but today i could just go on without milo or anything). then when it came to dinner, i didnt even eat rice. i just ate some dishes and i was so FULL!!!!

2007-12-04T11:34:00.000+08:00

Im feeling quite troubled after reading my tagboard. Who is that fella? Did I just lose another friend or what. and i just realised i have so many lost friendships!!! i've only been alive for 18 years and i havent been able to keep almost all my friends. sheesh.

I didn’t quite enjoy prom. Well not as much as I thought I would. I wont go into the details. But I did take some photos.:) I’ll post them some day some time. I hope.

Going for church camp tmr!!!! I’ll be gone from wed all the way till sat!!! but I don’t really have that excited, butterflies in my stomach feeling. Im just like going with the flow.

going to watch freedom writers later at home:) then im going to wait for my beloved sister to get back from hk. then i'll cook her birthday dinner then im going to pack for camp then SLEEEEEEEEP.:) long eventful fruitful productive day

2007-11-23T21:35:00.000+08:00

hello hello once again to all you darlings reading this

i've been busy with the green beret training at auntie serene's place
but im free tonight to blog a little while then im going to bed soon
im totally excited about tomorrow!
i dont know. for once in my 18 years of life
i feel like i can just forgo shopping and just devote my whole life to just serving God.
i may sound crazy to some but for those that understand where im coming from,
WOOHOO!!! im on jesus's express bus!!!!!

prom is just a few days away.
though i do feel excited, but for some reason, im not as excited as i used to be.
i feel even more excited fasting and praying
i mean in the past, if you were to get me to fast,
i'll pull a long face and question you for a while before finally agreeing
but now!!! it may be tough but im alright with it.
i havent been eating from 9am to 5pm since tuesday
but im enjoying every minute of it.
its partly also cause of the sense of satisfaction i derive from not eating

pastor brought a whole group of us to excelsior hotel to have lunch.
yum yum!
the young people's table ordered like a colossol amount of food!!!!
we had 5 plates of chicken wings, siew mai, har kao, char siew shou, 2 veg, water cress soup, xiao long bao, fried shrimps
blah blah blah
we were so hungry!!!!!
it almost felt like we were eating one month worth of food cause we wont be getting to eat from 9am to 5pm all the way till the end of dec!!!!!
we went crazy but we had alot of fun eating and laughing and taking photos.

2007-11-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

hello all you lovely people!

i actually typed a super lopng post but i dont know why it didnt publish. but its okay. i'll give you a summarised version!!!!!

went to watch stardust with nat the cat today then went to do some kick boxing at true yoga then we went to have a little tea time snack at coffee club then i came home to have dinner:)

yesterday. went out with auntie serene and the gang after the funeral. had cheese crab and took neoprints!!!!:)

going to watch hero thats why im giving such a short summary of what i actually typed

goodbye all my ardent fans!!!! love y'all!!!

2007-11-17T10:49:00.000+08:00

as you can tell
i got myself a new blogskin!!!!
WEEE~! i love that little girl.
oh oh did you read the poem when you first entered the blog?
i LOVE that poem
it kinda answers what we all wanna know about ourselves.
after reading it, you just tend to sigh and kinda agree
cause there really is no other logical explanation to many of those things that have happened.

went to a church friend's wake last night.
i felt so sad for the family
the son lost his mother
the husband lost his wife
but when you think deeper into it,
its not so bad either
the mother is happy in heaven
laughing and singing and dancing
best of all!
she met the ONE. the maker.
i'd give up anything and everything for that!
just like what mitch albom said in his book,
" lost love is still love. its just that it takes a different form. you cant see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. but when those senses weaken, another heightens. memory. memory becomes your partner. you nurture it. you hold it. you dance with it. life has to end. love doesnt"
love this passage in the book 'five people you meet in heaven'
i'll always remember oratai.

went to get a new hair cut yesterday after my paper!!!:)
LOVE it.:)

2007-11-16T09:33:00.000+08:00

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tingles in a silly place
And it starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go
The rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore
And it starts in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go
What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way
I just mmmmm
And they start in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make a smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go
I've been asleep for a while now
You tuck me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth
And it starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feeling shows
'cause you make me smile
baby Just take your time now
Holdin' me tight
Wherever wherever wherever you go
Wherever wherever wherever you go
wherever you go
I always know
'Cause you make me smile
Even just for a while
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

studying for chem online. just doing some practise. taking my last paper today. im excited. but i dont have anything exciting on today. i just cant wait for saturday!!!!!

yesterday was fun. after the geog paper, nat xy and i went for lunch at a jap restaurant at cuppage. MMMMMMmmmmm!!! then we went back to nat's sister's apartment and stayed there till 5pm. then all of us left.

theres a new exciting tv show!!! HEROES! oh boy oh boy~! it was so exciting so intriguing so thought provoking so inspiring so thrilling!!! it leaves you at the edge of your seat! its a brilliant show. SO MANY people in school were talking about it on tuesday! as much as i like prison break, heroes is better. seriously.

2007-09-15T21:17:00.000+08:00

to grace:

our friendship must be part of God's plan

He allowed me to feel your pain

He enabled me to smile with you

To cry for you when your heart is numbed

To be your listening ear when the sky seems dark

you understand when no one can

you hold me when i cant stand

you're the one that really cares

God must have heard my cry for a true blue friend

i love you my dearest pal.

i really mean it. i nearly teared

2007-09-13T16:33:00.000+08:00

im finally officially done with PRELIMS!!!!!!
WOOHOOOOOO~!!!!!
i get to play from now till next monday.
i am SO gonna cherish every minute of play time:):):):):)

i love maroon 5's lead singer. he is SO SO SO good looking.

stayed in school till about 1pm today with ah yao cause im just simply TOO FREE!!!! we had nothing to do so we just sat around in school and talked rubbish. came home and had a little nap. but im still feeling very sleepy. maybe cause im just too free and have nothing else better to do.:) i LOVE this feeling.

i was thinking yesterday. actually right, there are really alot of miracles in my life. for some strange reason. even before i started attending disciple class. and right, im really starting to think that its God's will that i end up in CJC. SERIOUSLY!! like... CJ was my 7th choice during the first intake. then the 2nd time, i told god that i would put CJ as my 7th choice again so that if its really his will, i'll end up back there. so in the end, i really did!! and my mother started scolding me and all. and i went down to NYJC to appeal. but it wasnt successful. for some strange reason. then i was put into class 2T07. dont you see? its all 7. conincidence? i think not.

although i dont quite like my class but i must say, it has really pushed me to study cause my class is DAMN MUGGER type. compared to the other classes in J2, my class is really infamous cause we're like SUPER nerdy. so its actually not a bad thing that im in T07. plus!!! i made some great friends like nat!!!!! even after 2 years, i still dont quite like my school but looking back, i did have a lot of fun. i had the MOST fun during first 3 mths sitting beside douglas in class. then when i was put into T07, i had a lot of fun with nat!!!! like when i tricked mrs tan that her angel was nat when we were playing the angel and mortal game and how we turned hysterical when i gave mrs tan the natalie 'sound alike' note, the many times nat and i made a fool of ourselves alonf the staircases, when i was crowned queen gertrude, when nat told the whole class that i wanna be a martyr(HAHAHAHA!!!!), when nat and rach named the small magnetic clips(i.e. vodka weatherbee, soda weatherbee, fruitella applebee, blah blah blah)... the list goes on. bottomline is, i laughed ALOT everyday!!!! even though i might not miss my classmates, but i know i'll miss natalie and MRS TAN and her little SHAUN-IE!!!!!

2007-09-12T10:10:00.000+08:00

went to have dinner with my sister yesterday.
we went to sushi teh and i had that ebi bento thing and sashimi and the red bean fish ice cream thing and that green peas thing and soft shell crab maki and tako yaki. yum yum!
we made a mistake by deciding to order those stuff we never used to order.
BIG MISTAKE! the usual stuff that we always order is the phoenix roll, the sashimi thing, chawamoshi, the red bean ice cream thing, the salmon belly soup and i dont rmb alr!!!
but they are just DELICIOUS.

then we went to look at beautiful dresses for prom.
my goodness! they were indeed gorgeous!!!!!!
i really like one of them. like really!!!
but im going to stop myself from buying.
cause its still too early to decide. i mean what if i see a nicer and cheaper one?
i'll kill myself!!!!

OH OH OH!!! and my sister bought me beautiful earrings from accessorize.
its actually meant for people with 3 ear holes cause they actually sell them in 3's.
its quite cute cause its small and has little flowers on it.

so let me tell you my plans for this week.
i have a paper tmr. then im probably going to drop by my godma's place,
then im going for dinner at 'tea party'.
then on friday, im going for dinner with my FRIEND, then im going to check out more dresses, then im going to church.
then my weekends are all given to god.
then on monday, im going out with my ex church friend for coffee.
WOOHOO! fun fun fun!!!!:)

2007-09-11T16:30:00.000+08:00

exams are finally going to end soon.
this thurs.... just a little while more!!!!:)
but im not going to sutyd tonight until tmr morning since thurs ppr is just mcq
then this sunday i can finally have dinner with the GANG!!! AGAIN!!!

im so glad i found a friend.
a real friend.
i've never really had a real friend all my life.
so im so happy and i really feel so blessed!
she makes me smile.:)

went to have dinner at this beautiful restaurant behind meridien hotel.
auntie doreen gave us all a treat.
so YUMMY!!!!!
i ate and ate and ate and ate!
haha!

didnt really study the whole of last week.
i was suppose to but i just couldnt get myself to do so.
went to watch no reservations and rogue assasin!
catherine zeta jones is hot!
her legs are WOOOOOOOOOOOT~!
but i wasnt really concentrating throughout the whole show.
so i think the storyline of the show kinda sucked.
but rogue assasin was DAMN good!!!!!!
it was awfully violent and bloody but WAH! the story twist and turn until WAH!
PERFECT SHOW! jet li is so GOOOOD. jackie chan can go and die. haha!

rebec and grace came over to my place for a sleepover last wednesday.
we had alot of fun:)
then the others came over on thursday morning to join us for some studying thing.
but in the end, only darel and i and james were actually doing some real work.
heh!:)

2007-08-16T22:32:00.001+08:00

hello!!!!
its been a good week!!
i naturally supernaturally felt SO SO awake this WHOLE weeek!!
its a first im telling yoU!
normally im ALWAYS sleepy during lessons and i dread going for lessons
NAT KEEPS SAYING THAT I HAVE A DISORDER!
but this week, im ALWAYS so awake!!!!
even though i couldnt sleep last night, and i only managed to sleep at 2 plus,
i was SO awake the WHOLE day!!!!
just that i had trouble opening my eyes this morning.
it feels so good to be always this awake.

oh i have a new name.
rach and nat came up with this name for me.
im called QUEEN GERTRUDE.
i hated this name yesterday.
but today, i kinda like it. cause of the word QUEEN!
i sound so royal and altruistic.
i want the teachers to call me that tooo!!!!
"QUEEN GERTRUDE! what is an earthquake?"
hahahaha!!!! THATS IT!!!! IM GOING TO MAKE THE TEACHERS CALL ME THAT!!

oh and i discovered a BUS AFFAIR!!!
this indian woman waits for the bus everyday with this guy, that i THINK is her husband, in the morning.
but that day, when i was on the same bus as her,
when the bus went to the next stop,
this other indian man got up the bus and sat beside her on the bus at the back
and they started being very intimate.
MY GOODNESS! my eyeballs nearly drop!!!!!
but then again i cant be really sure that she is having an affair. we'll see!

i cant wait for saturday to come!!! my sister is coming home!!! AT LAST!!! FINALLY!!!!! i miss her. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

this saturday i'll be going for a movie marathon at church with the youthS!!!!! YIPEE!!! DESTRESSS!!!!!! i get to PLAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEE for 3 hours!!!! WOOHOO!

i cant wait for the A's to end!!! then i'll get to GO OUT go out GO OUT go out, SHOP shop SHOP shop SHOP shop, PLAY play PLAY play PLAY and most importantly, i'll get to go for PROM!!!!WOOHOO!!! I LOVE PROM!!!! we get to dress up and HAVE FUN!!!

2007-07-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

i heard the video is interesting.

im feeling so cooooold!!!!
my nose is runny.....
but i LURVE this weather!!!!:):):):):)

went shopping last night with mummy!
bought a top from river island.
WEEEE~!

i rmb that girl's name!!!!
she is called FREDA!!!
i was close.

celebrated steffi's bday today at school.
the macaroons on the cake were DARN goooood:)

rach nat and i ran 10 rounds during pe today.
we didnt wanna play games.

sch starts later tomorrow.
that means i get to sleep MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just want tmr to fly by.....

2007-07-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

my sista is in CHINA!!!!! then she'll be going to HK.... no sista for 5 WEEKS!!!!
gee.
went out with my church friends on saturday and sunday.
but i enjoyed sunday better cause it was with a bigger group.
on SATURDAY, daniella moses james and i went to watch the fireworks at the ndp rehearals.
the fireworks were brilliant.
they were SO BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!! it took my breath away
and it made me speechless.
all i could say was ,' WAH!!!!!'
then moses dan and james kept trying to take a video of the fireworks.
BUT!!!! all they could see in the phone were white spots.
damn pathetic.
i, on the other hand, chose to just enjoy the moment....AHHHHHHHHHH~!

then on SUNDAY!!!!!
went to church in the morning, then i went for youth svc.
then 2 new ppl came!!!!!
DAREL and i forgot that girl's name. ahahahah! OPPSSSS~!
fedel? i forgot! it sounds sth like that.
then we went for dinner after svc. all FOURTEEN of us.
we raided pasatamania at funan
we made SO MUCH noise that the people had to tell us tp tone down!!!!
then we went to esplanade at the roof terrace to play and take photos
i hung round till abt 7 then dan darel lovey and i had to leave.
it was a great day:)

then on monday, it was back to reality for me.
now i got to wait for the weekends to come again.
AH!!!! so exciting......

2007-06-30T13:19:00.000+08:00

2007-06-28T12:35:00.000+08:00

my exams are finally over!!!
:))))))))))))))))))))))
im currently in the process of colouring my nails.
its gona be nice and pink and HOT when im done:)))
im so glad my exams are over!
i've been dreaming of this moment for WEEKS!!!
i did quite alot of things this month.
went to the beach with my church friends
went to the beach again....
then i..... ok i didnt really do anything much
i spent most of my time studying
then on weekends, i'd go to church
past two weeks we've been going to the youth service on the english side.
it was fun
someone in there looks like my previous church friend.
which is just weird!
oh well.:)

i wont have school tmr, mon and tues!!!
WOOHOO!!! but i still have not figured out what im gona do on mon and tues.
but i sure do have plans for tmr!!!!!

im gona go down to the seamstress to collect my dance stuff
then im gona go have dinner with my sister later:)

i really miss using the computer. its been more than a month since i last used the computer i think.
i miss this feeling.
i miss the feeling of playing without thinking about my studies.
its like.... so LIBERATING!!!

oh yeah!! now i rmb!! i caught 3 movies in a month!!!
WEEE!!! i watched shrek3, pirates3 and oceans 13!!!!
shrek3 was SO FUNNY!!!! my sister and i just kept laughing!
pirates was okay. the ending was a little sad when orlando bloom could only meet keira knightly once evey 10 yrs. oceans 13 was complicated and difficult to understand BUT!!!! i did understand the show and i really like how they "steal" money from casinos. its like WAAAAAAAY cool!
okay. im in the mood for movies NOW!

2007-05-14T20:50:00.000+08:00

had a happening pe today.
im glad i dont have a tag board.
otherwise, there'd be alot of messages cursing me by now.
i feel bad for what happened but
it wasnt totally OUR side's fault.
cause if he didnt come and knock us accidentally and not apologise,
we wouldnt have said those things.
but anyhow! im still sorry for what happened.
sounds so childish as i type it out to myself.
oh well. these things happen.
i kept thinking about what happened on my way home.
i dont blame him for crying.
i can kinda understand why.
so now, i just have to wait till tmr to see what happens.
cause the class probably hates us by now
we lost cause we're the BIG bullies and he is the victim.
or at least thats what it looks like to everyone
cause he doesnt talk, he cried
but we kept yakking and we left without shedding a tear.
in this case, a guy's tear is the most powerful!
welcome to the new ERA!

promise not to do it again.

2007-05-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

had a lovely weekend.
i bought a pair of aldo earrings:):):):):):)
nice and big and yellow/green.

nat and rach and i were singing today
damn funny!!!
i went "last niggght..."
rach: "didnt even get an answer"
nat: "answer"
me:"and the way i feel"
rach:".....(dont know what she was singing)"
nat:" down"
then we tried to sing 'irreplaceable' in spanish.
hahaha! we sounded damn pro!
played an exciting game of frisbee during pe
played against T01
we lost one game but WON one game.
so fun!
came home. went running.
feels so gooooooood to run pass those men.
WOOOOOOO!